Its the truth

It's just the naked truth I am alive when I am with you. We come together each time a surprise.My safe illusion of control, slowly fading. You already know ... The dance we're dancing we've danced before... It's always just a matter of time before I let go... I let you in... Taking control of my body and my mind entering into my space.... The naked truth is that when I am with you time is suspended and I just cant get enough...

A-YO!

A Yo You over there A yo Can I get a minute of your time While I attempt to unwind and bring This thang full tilt A yo Really don't mean yo be rude but You Yeah The chocolate one The one who jokes a lot Standing right there plain as day With me in your sight I want to get this right Change the game a bit Sit you down and talk real quick Or longer whatever it takes To really make this thang... Real Yo I'm just saying A minute to unwind Have a bite to eat Or a glass of wine To ease your mind And mines for that matter. Speaking of the latter I'm intrigued by you How you make me want to know you Grow with you Flow with you Take a chance at this romance we got Known you for less than a minute but feels like a lot Not a love thang But you never know The future may hold truths waiting to be told And this minute you spared May turn into a lifetime ago But a yo All you have to do is give me just a minute of your time.

Poem

Whispers in the wind sing a song long forgotten, a melody so sweet you can almost taste it. Dancing on a promise told never stumbling but gracefully twirling and floating on a wish. Beautiful as a butterfly, remembering a smile just as comforting. A new day the first dawn after a rain, fresh cut flowers given with a sweet kiss. Thoughts of travels and new explorations, laughter and love, comfort found in a warm embrace.

mindful

I don't want just your body, your mind is what I want to ravish. Just to sit and talk for hours or speak volumes with absolutely no words. To be on your team and never question or worry about a thing. Strength in numbers yet still a movement alone Allowing you to be the man you are and I be the woman I am with Mutual respect for one another Walking tall feeling protected next to you. Never afraid to be vulnerable or worry about a thing, you respect the process the growth that this friendship had taken Knowing that it is truly for keeps.

pretty dimples

Pretty dimples Dipped in chocolate Kissed by the sun I could sit and marvel at that smile One that captures my heart Puts butterflies in my stomach Has me intrigued Nervously wringing my hands Giddy like a teen Shoot Fidgety even But with a smile like the sunshine It's easy to be comfortable I truly marvel at the connection Interested in going further Digging deeper Knowing more Enjoy being in the presence of you. I await the next encounter

fskow

You see my smile as I hide my Pain You find me laughing when crying is really on my brain Life Being happy is what I want Sleep soundly Awake ready for the day But Im a drone wasting away This isn't life And living this way is a shame

leaping

Its never felt like this before This feeling makes me want to be different Explore new heights Amazingly acute Fantastically wonderful Becoming generously generous gentle with my approach Treading lightly Letting go My safety net secure I am free falling into it No parachute Ready for what happens next Anticipating the next move On the way down asking no questions Enjoying the thrill Its all consuming encompasses me The joy of freedom I am loving the feeling

sweet dreams

I awaken from my slumber to thoughts of you. You climb your way into my mental in a relaxed state of mind, taking up space I hide you there. Taking a peek into the unknown and finding a smile that curves the line bringing sweet memories of a time that has past. Wishing on a star and praying for whats good and right in the world. Until sleep engulfs me nice again and the dream like state brings you back to me and I am at peace.

Its You

It's always been you The smile the style The way my heart flutters And skips a beat I can't get you out of my system The touch and the essence The closeness of you Makes me stand up and notice Steal glances at lips I want to kiss Taking in the presence felt from across the room I sit and bask in your presence tempted on every side To stay away or not you are etched in my heart and I feel you way down in my secret places I can't get you out of my mind. You inspire me with your passion and encourage me with your words. You are the perfect melody behind my song The words flow like water and I'm drinking every bit with an unquenched thirst until every drop is gone.

laughter

Laughter is on the surface of a sullen sick soul Smiling but bitter longing for an escape Torturous thought plague a mind running ramped with distain and disgust Bringing the hidden into plain sight Can't hide behind this smile forever Wondering when the laughter will become genuine again

nothing like hello

Working on the goodbyes Writing them down in ink so they won't be erased Take a seat this may take a while Staying here is not an option But goodbye is always hard to do Unless you are really ready Fed up to the point of no return Just sit Think about this a bit If it was a good hello it can be a goodbye Either way it has to be said and done This is never fun This isn't a pleasant see you later Everything has an expiration date and well this is yours.

Lingering thoughts

I think about the times, the many ways you surprise me with little bits of you... Surprising as they may be brings a curve to the the line... Makes me want to linger a bit more, hang on your words listen to your song become closer... Breathe in the essence of you and become drunk. Memorizing you mesmerized and captivated by your touch I await you. I welcome the excitement that you bring and when you depart I long for more. I am filled with your energy, your name etched on my windowpane...

touch

See my love you touch me without hands and handle me with care You know my wants and wish away my fears Being a rock and a shoulder to lean upon I can't ask for a better way to be touched To be held by you in the physical pales in comparison to being held in your high regards You see me for the woman I am you see the real me. So I say to you don't ever take your love your kindness or understanding away.

You Are

Someone to call my own Who loves my smile There is no question I'm his number one share me with no one Keep me for himself Like me Love me Only me Then I shall be yours His Forever Love of his life His other half Wife Mother of his children Life partner Confidant Friend Soul mate This is what it's like To be yours and you mines Learning each other together Walking side by side Talking Experiencing Taking on the world as a unit

Jumping back Jack

I hope I didn't jump Get ahead of the game Fun we have yes lots But maybe it's too soon You arent ready for this I jumped the gun Losing the race This is me feeling like I have egg on my face I thought you liked little ol me Persistently pursued Patiently waited Opened up and let you in Maybe I gave you too much credit Too much power Let you know I want more than To play I'm tired of this alone time game I can't apologize for being all Soft and pink Maybe my excitement about us being two Has ignored your pull back...

23/30

Don't you know I'm in love with you boy You have my heart Please be kind to it I want to be all that you want Everything you need Homie lover and friend I want to let you in To the deepest parts Keep you in my heart You are a constant on my mind When you touch me I tingle I can never get enough

Turbulent timing

Sometimes I feel like I want to get away Away from all the hopes and dreams Away from all the fiends Away from everything that means More than life to me Sometimes I question it all Wonder the wondering wonder of it all Feeling like I don't want to even feel Or go where it doesn't matter Tuck myself away Hide from it all Trade it in Always wondering if this is it When does my life start Did it even begin Letting things bother me no more Walking away and letting go Not interested Looking for the answer Needing help deciphering The thought process that I find myself going through Purging my soul should I begin baring it all Making it clear for everyone to see Perfect I am not so let me breathe Living my life not so it's in vain Mistakes are bound to be made Looking over my shoulder as I sit Thinking is this it...

IN

The feeling I get when I am in your arms Wrapped in your embrace Feels like forever in a second I breathe you in I feel your presence Protected from the world Keeping what's dear to you close Reassuring Letting it be known you care Easing all fears Like the Light at the end of the tunnel Making all things clear

sealed with a kiss

I am writing you down in my heart sealing it with a kiss, our times alone I have grown to truly enjoy and often times miss. Thinking of the feeling of being wrapped in your strong embrace makes me smile with delight and long for a return of this. Time has passed and I find myself growing fonder, the minutes the miles makes close time more memorable. I carry you with me I smile at the thought of us together you and I on the same wavelength leaving with nothing but smiles Now I don't want just your body, your mind is what I want to ravish. Just to sit and talk for hours or speak volumes with absolutely no words. To be on your team and never question or worry about a thing. Strength in numbers yet still a movement alone Allowing you to be the man you are and I be the woman I am with Mutual respect for one another Walking tall feeling protected next to you. Never afraid to be vulnerable or worry about a thing, you respect the process the growth that this friendship had taken Knowing that it is truly for keeps.

This Time

This time feels better than the first time together Etched in my heart and mind I commit you Commit you to memory until the next time we meet In a warm embrace Warming my heart and teasing me all at once A smile plays at the corners of my lips As I long for you Await you And the day that you are around me more Filling up my space with traces of you The feeling very pleasing to my senses Gently ease my trepidation away Encourage me with your words Comfort me with your kiss Hold me in your arms... Make me feel safe Protected Love me Like a man loves a woman Touch me like a man hungry For his last meal Savoring each morsel See me only me Not as perfect Yet, Perfection in your eyes The perfect woman for you Feeling your essence mingling with mines Mentally, physically and emotionally Connected Intertwining Leaving no room for error Awaiting the day when we two are one. Making this time better than the last time...

Thoughts

Words come to mind but uttering too many makes me question Question whether too much has been thought said or heard... Beyond the physical I speak from the gut exposing the raw the unfiltered the things hidden beneath, found under layers of secrets and second guessing. You will find me scribbling in notebooks typing on a computer program, blogging even. Taking a picture and remembering a lyric, the one that speaks to my heart tells me where to even begin and then all nerve is gone leaving me to wonder was there ever a time when words come to mind and I began to utter them spilling forth from my lips the secrets that ache to come out. stories begging to be told and waiting to be heard wanting to be written. penned if you wish. Making them concrete creations for the masses to see, touch, experience... And feel.

18/30

I want you You are my want My desire My crush I want you The one who makes me Laugh Blush Rearrange the time The stars if I could To be yours In your arms Forever I want you Deep down in my heart of hearts No one can take your place

17/30

Love when you hold me in your arms I feel like you love me the woman I am and who I am growing to be You are the only constant on my mind You drive me wild and don't even try To get you out of my system oh how I've tried Failure isn't an option But loving you is Growing to know you feel you in my heart Spending time together Even when we are apart Teenage love is always playing in my heart A lasting feeling I have, and have come to trust.

16/30

It's funny you see How these experiences inspire me Taking over my senses Showing me what I can ultimately be When I am doing this it's all bliss Never questioning Giving answers Confident always This is the way it should be This is my happy!

15/30

I can still feel you... Your fingerprints are all over me Tracing the contour of my essence I await you reaching inside filling me with your presence Kissing me kindly leaving me punch drunk I want more chocolate kisses Tasting every bit delicious on my tongue I crave it You satisfy my urge Still I want to taste more of what's offered up I could go to sleep and wake to tasting chocolate It's just so sweet on my lips Mmm lips those I can't wait to kiss every bit scrumptious I want more of those Wet kisses Kisses that burn imprints on my flesh making it hard for me to breathe

14/30

Longing for you to be near But you are so far away... I want you always near I want your tongue to dance all over My skin and your hands to follow... I want you to fill me to the brim Give me sweet kisses And mounds of pleasure To feel you breathe on my neck and whisper in my ear as I give into the waves that consume me...

13/30

I feel you Way deep down in the places where secrets lie, you whisper sweet nothings of yesterday's gone by and of today's yet to come keeping me under your spell Inviting me to dance every so often Searing into my memory smiles and long embraces I savor each moment and tuck them away for safe keeping

12/30

Waiting to feel your strong arms around me Your warm embrace blanketing me as I rest my head against your chest Feeling your heartbeat lull me sleep

11/30

All I can think of is your lips pressed against mines Sweet surrender

10/30

Slumbering sleep revisit me Taking a quick glance at the back of my eyelids should seal the deal.. Let the sandman in take me away to dreamland I sit Lay with bated breath Toss and turn Lavender to calm the nerves Still the mind Restless spirit Stretch out let old bones Rest a bit Longing for hands to rub away stress Melt into skin Ease sleep from it's captured state.

9/30

Drinking a glass of wine you are on my mind... Taking me places that I long to go. Remembering the places that I have been and you That tall drink of water Drawing me closer into your world Eating me up devouring even All the answers and none As I stare at the bottom of this empty glass.

8/30

Blue Your favorite Jeans Tee Socks Car My feelings even As you walk away A Bird to carry them away Berries so sweet Await your return The melody Resonates

7/30

Looking at the meaning to it all Listening to it tell the secret Touching time gone by Breathing a sigh of relief As the feeling floods back Quickening breaths subside As the weakness comes in waves and leaves the same way Trembling skin Rough to the touch Smoothing out the lines Tasting the pleasures

6/30

Slumber Sleep What a beautiful treat Night watch Night owl Up with the sun Purposeful not Accidental On purpose Insomnia taking over

5/30

Breaking down the walls Climbing up to the top My heart is your mission No it's longer on my sleeve But buried deep inside Away from the quick grip The sly smile

4/30

Be careful Everyone is watching Altering your perspective Uttering those unthinkable things Telling you to be thin, straighten your hair, conform fall in line You are strong and beautifully different.

3/30

Blank stares Anticipating the negative anguish shown clearly on my face blindsided by trust Hoodwinked and bamboozled Led astray to the notion of more to come When in all actuality the reality is harsh Backs turned instead of arms open wide Shutting me out Out of the circle that once held trust. Leaving me with endless questions

2/30

The curve The contour The constant stares Coincidence I consider that unlikely This was a conscious decision A considerate and concise thought process Brought to you by chance.

1/30

This is a test Only a test To see where your mind goes Where the ebb and flows Through the wind Catching the fire Releasing the flame Sparks igniting Soft to the touch Bringing you closer and closer To the light.

something something

There is Something about you that makes me want to know more Take a peek below the surface and see what's there Uncover the hidden in plain site Get down to the bottom learn those things no one else knows Every time we talk I am more and more intrigued by you Captivated by your words Caught up in your excitement I love how you let me in learn a new piece of you Not just as a good friend but know you as a man Strong and handsome Pleasing and reassuring Makes me want to smile Lifts my spirits and keeps me coming back for more.

curved lines

An incredible urge to feel you near awakens my senses and has my body on overdrive. The thought of a craving to touch taste please is on my mind A mind filled with memories of summer days filled with wonder and playful nights... Allowing my mind to wander a bit, I sit and enjoy the glimpse of once pure bliss that escapes parted lips The sound lending themselves to the melody felt as the music plays a tune the tempo our bodies search to remember...

kissin you

Kissing you felt like the first time Taking me to a place of bliss Inviting me to think inappropriate yet so appropriate thoughts... I enjoy the feeling of your soft lips pressed against mines This time remembering came easier as I began to glide my tongue over lips that beg for me to kiss Resisting the absolute urge to steal as many as I can get I await to feel the soft warmness of your lips on mines once again.

share

Thinking of the things that matter and those that don't In the grand scheme of things we should say the things we mean to say Share those tidbits we are almost afraid to utter Dare to step out on a limb Show up and show out! Come go with me Journey a bit Write down a list making it real... History even Forever in a second awakening to the possibility of what comes next ;)

sleeplessness

Slumbering sleep revisit me Taking a quick glance at the back o my eyelids should seal the deal.. Let the sandman in take me away to dreamland I sit Lay with bated breath Toss and turn Lavender to calm the nerves Still the mind Restless spirit Stretch out let old bones Rest a bit Longing for hands to rub away stress Melt into skin Ease sleep from it's captured state.

essence

Can't get you off my mind Believe me I tried since the last time You are engrained in my memory Etched in my heart I keep a piece of you with me In a place where secrets lie Slowly I inhale and exhale bits of you Your loving warm embrace constant on my mind Seducing my senses Driving me wild Leaving me sated yet wanting more

Feeling

Walking talking thinking Feelings Working playing Feelings Never ending Consuming Can't sleep can't eat Feelings Feelings of Depression hurt shame Up in the middle of the night Feelings Longing for more receiving less Feelings Being yourself without apology Loving who you see Feelings Unapologetic Take me or leave me Loving this Feelings

For you

One day I won't miss your kisses and being with you will Be a memory The time I've yearned for you And only your touch will be a memory posted up on a wall Not in my heart On my mind In my soul You I will bury in the recesses of my heart And forget your smile Your embrace When that day comes I will know that being with you Enjoying time with you was not in vain But today isn't that day and my heart still silently aches for you. Its as if I lost you yesterday and my days have been incomplete. You make me smile and show That shy girl inside that she is a strong woman I bet you don't even know the impact That you held on me But I guess that's why you were able to say goodbye Knowing you for a moment allowing you in I regret not Because I cherish the experiences The loving warm embrace that you always gave me. I wish you a lifetime of happiness Even now as my heart weeps.

vessels

Vessels The woman before you a broken vessel seeking repair I bow I break my life is crystal clear Looking for the remedy I search galore Search for beauty and peace restored Angst arises like the steam from the ground What happened to this queen Where is her crown? Wrapped up in worry Clothed in concern Never to utter those simple words I am beautiful this is me What you see before you Is truly me I am strong I am wise Look me always in the eyes Eyes that have strength Tell tales of past hurt shame and regret Windows to the soul of a woman scorned Take a look again and you will see Your mother aunt sister niece grandmother all the women in your life wrapped up in me.

Mom's Kitchen

She could not tell you now what she was thinking
As she sat in her mothers kitchen
Stirring a pot
She was still young then
wearing her favorite white dress, lace trimmed
Wanted to cook just like mom
She stood then on tip toes inspecting hot contents
She would stir
The kitchen the same now as it was when she was a little girl
Painted a fresh coat of white with flower curtains hanging
Over the sink, the ones her daddy hated so much
She is reminded of good times when she would sit
On her daddy's lap or sip cocoa with mom
At that very table, the one in the corner of the room
That was her time to vent, to cry as she often did
Tears that would burn straight through to her soul
Her mother would listen intently as she would prepare the next meal
with such a calmness in her voice for her beloved daughter
On long days like this when feelings of inadequacy would flood back
Years now lost, she would turn to her dear mother who would ease her fears
Only if someone would have told that little girl in the white dress
To be as free as long as she could
But all of this is lost
Because I cannot tell you now what she was thinking.

The Fantastic Feast

They thought i couldn't do it.
But,
the trap was set
SNAP
I had him
Fluttering his wings screaming BEEP-BEEP
I had finally caught him
He is roasting now
Smell it
BBQ sauce
Just the way I like to eat my road kill
It all happened one day when me Wile E. Coyote
Was once again duped by "dinner"
So instead of chasing it like I usually would set my trap
and went about my business.
No more BEEP-BEEP
No more me being victim of disaster.
Lip cocked back showing razor sharp teeth,
Not me anymore!
By the way he tastes great.

Who needs a car

Yesterday my car died on me, and the dog ate my homework.

Well I don't have a dog and ,y car really didn't die it just wouldn't start.

But my computer did crash and my scan disk went blank.

My car coughed and gagged and wouldn't turn over if it were pushed.

I banged in the steering wheel as I cried out "I hate this car".

I could smell the gas fumes and my eyes began to tear

My eyes could hear what my ears refused to see

Even Edgar Jones in New Haven knew that car wasn't going to start.

To make my day even better I missed the bus

My peeps from next door hooked me up with a ride

The warm day of agony

Came in like a dream and left the same

Well it would be a while before Jen Jen would drive her car again

A week later would be the first time the car would be driven

Mi Vida Loca

The air around it would sing a new tune and the car

would hum along with it,

This being the cars,

to walk alongside the clouds like a bird

leaving me to hear the motion

of my car dieing on me yesterday.

Yesterdays

New York is not that far from my heart,

More like Brooklyn.

And You

Chocolate Brown and tall

Melt in your mouth not in your hands

Fine!

I travel to enter your space,

The train is the only way to go

I remember the smell of your cologne,

When it was on me

Lingering around like a hug

Curve

Like a lasting memory lingers

The taste of your full lips

As you kiss mines

Reminds me of ripe melon

sweetened with honey

The salute you gave

Ever so gently

When it was time to get up,

Was all I ever needed.

Just to be next to you

Receiving a simple embrace,

The clock still chimes

In awe of our love

Exploring the spaces on me

That you know all to well

Using the stairs to get to my heart

You climb

To the peak to you go

Relishing at your awaited victory

Your great climactic scene.

Remembering

To ever so sweetly,

Set the alarm clock.