Randomness

Wanted to pen this...

Start to write again

Didn't know how or where to start anymore

thought of a day to day account

quickly nixed that!

Who likes being in a box anyways!

wanted to write about you and how you make me feel

well... supercalifragilisticexpialidcious

and make my inner woman roar

Oh well

who wants to be in love anyways...

Searching for myself and the meaning to it all

walking in the rain and dreaming of the sunshine

drowning and I can't get out.

Thinking and uncertain at times, unfulfilling and blue

and broken dreams deferred no more gainful or pure

Seeking what is now and then to come

praying for a little peace

just for a little piece of the rainbow

nevermind the pot of gold...

for now at least!

Pieces of Peace

I write you down in my mind

etch you accross my skin this is always how it begins

a little piece for my peace

and some sanity

I beg of you

how goes it...

effortless

the way to insanity is closely met with heartache

sunshines on my face

wind blowing through my hair

singing this tune that wont leave me

a little peace

its all I long for, this aching

sometimes longing

searching for the true meaning to be met

insanity brewing

mission possible.. maybe

just a piece of that peace that brings

calmness and clearity

No Applause

I can feel a million eyes on me

Peering through me

Like I am on display

It's all up to me

I have everyone's attention

yet

I croak

I cringe

Is that sound coming from my throat?

I try once more but the words

caught in my throat

The only things that escapes are my constant pleas

My attempt at recovery

Failed

It's so quiet now

My body knows the tempo

Yet and still

All that comes out is

CROAAAK

My hands are clammy

My mind is going wild

I want to scream

Run

GAG even

Until...

Like a wave of sickness

out of my throat that which has hindered me

serves as my downfall

As the curtain falls.

Bittersweet

RED

HOT LIKE FIRE

TRUE BLUE OCEANS FILL FROM POOLS

BENEATH IRISES

SITTING IN AN DEEP ABYSS

NOWHERE NEAR BLISS

TIGHTENING

GRIPPING

NO IMPORTANCE

TRAGIC

ALL CONSUMING

TURBULENT EVEN

SICKENING

A MEANS TO NO END

BECOMING OUT OF CONTROL

TWISTING AND TURNING

BLINDING

BITTERSWEET...

Something So Wonderful

Trying to find the right words to say,

the right place to be

Feeling everything

and nothing

is it possible

To be in turmoil and feel glee

So many answers to the question

But believe none

Walking past the shadows

Staying on the side

Wishing...hoping... believing

You will remain in the hollow of his hand

and walk with angels...

Thoughts

Like the first breath taken as we merge
I feel you
you ease into my soul
drink up my essence
swallow me whole
engulfing
all consuming
your touch
tender
your kisses
delicious
burn imprints into my flesh
soft moans
escape parted lips
singing songs of bliss
bringing me closer to
a thousand little deaths
dancing to this beat
has become so
that I want no other

No more...

Wispers in the wind sing a song long forgotten

a melody that is so sweet you can almost taste it

dancing on a promise told

not stumbling but

twirling and floating like a butterfly

remembering a smile just as comforting

A new day right after the rain

fresh cut flowers given with promise of things to come

Thoughts of travels and explorations replaced by the thrill

of a new chase

comfort found no longer in that familiar space